One Month down....

two more to go.

I went to the doctor today for my 2nd of 4 rounds of blood work being done over a total of 3 months. The doctor is checking my pregnancy hormones to make sure that there are no cells left from the molar pregnancy.

My last blood work from a month ago my levels were at a 10. The doctor wants them to be return to normal which is below 2. She isn't concerned that they were at 10 yet. I was only two weeks post D&C and it take time for the body to adjust. I am not out of the woods yet but we will have a much clearer picture of where I am when my blood work comes back in a few days. I feel fine and I don't feel pregnant at all so I really do think all is good.

The last month has been a crazy roller coaster for us. I still get emotional when I think about everything or when I talk to someone about it. It's funny, there are some people I can talk to about it with no problem and there are some people that I can't talk to without crying and some people (my dad) that I can't talk to about it at all. I seem to be the most emotional when I am in the car by myself. I think its because I do nothing but think in the car.

We are into the full swing of school and football. We finished our 1st six weeks of school on Friday. Jason's team is now 3-2 on the season and 3-1 in district. They are in the heart of the playoff battle and the battle for 1st place. The team is looking great and I think it will only get better.

The last month it has been nice not having to worry about taking medicine and charting my temperature and trying to figure out if Jason is going to be home on the right night of the week for us to "bond". It's takes a huge stress off knowing that we will be through most of football season (because we are going deep in the playoffs) when the 3 months is up. With Jason being a varsity coach this year he has very little time for anything so it's nice to know that the time we have together is relaxing.

I am still sad that we have been through all we have but I would much rather go through all this now then to be much further along in my pregnancy or to lose a child after it is born. I read an article the other day about a professional baseball player who's son died the day after he was born. That player after a few days had to go back to work because his team was in the playoffs. He said that he told him self when he got on the mound (he is a pitcher) that he couldn't think about his son. He said once he got out there all he could think about was his son and knowing that he was looking down on him.

I can't even imagine going through that much pain. It might be selfish but I hope that all of the pain Jason and I have been through is because God is making sure that we get a beautiful and healthy baby in the end.