Up to this point my blog has been mainly about are struggles with conceiving. The blog has been a huge help with sorting through my thoughts so I thought why wouldn't it be a huge help with losing weight.
I have never been a small person....ever! I was a bigger child, a big teen and now a big adult. The smallest I ever was at an adult size was 170 lbs and that was the end of my senior year of high school. Jason and I have both put on a lot of weight since we met each other. With Jason I really think his problem came when he stopped playing football because he never stopped eating like he played football. I can blame mine one being in a stable relationship, my thyroid issue, my family background or whatever I want but the fact of the matter is I am just lazy! If I wasn't so lazy I could loose the weight.
I have proven to myself multiple times that I am capable. Over the last three years there has been three different occasions that I have lost 15 lbs or more. I always seem to put all the weight back on. I am currently 5 lbs down from the heaviest I have ever been. Every time I have lost weight it has been while I was counting calories. Makes sense right? Your body burns calories for energy. I think it is something like 3500 calories equals a pound. If you count out a significant amount then you are bound to lose weight. No matter how much sense it makes I can't seem to make myself do it. It will work for a few weeks and then I get tired of all the work. I can't afford to get lazy anymore.
The reason I have trouble conceiving is because I have PCOS. A majority of the women with PCOS have it because they are overweight. You would think after three years of struggling I would have put more effort into losing weight. Once again it comes back to being lazy.
This is my next big effort to stop being lazy and start doing the work. I joined Weight Watchers. I am hoping it is a temporary (about a year) aide. I think after awhile I will get the hang of what I should and shouldn't be eating, what will help me lose weight and what won't. I am also going to get back to running. I was doing it for a few weeks after we lost the baby out of the need to clear my head now I need to do it out of the need to get healthy.
Here comes the scary part....I am going to tell all of you (and the world) my current weight. My plan is to weigh myself every week and post a blog weekly about my progress. I need all of you to keep me honest. I will try to post regularly about my weight loss and how I am doing but if you see a lack of updates make sure you ask me about it. My goal is to lose 60 lbs. I am not putting a timeline on it because hopefully in the next few months we will be pregnant and that will obviously alter my progress but if I start getting healthy before baby and during the pregnancy then it will be much easier to get back on track after a pregnancy.
Here comes the scary part....I am going to tell all of you (and the world) my current weight. I weigh about 235 lbs. I don't know the exact because I haven't weighed myself in about two weeks but I don't travel far from that number usually a pound or two in either direction.
Here's to a big change in mine and Jason's lives (he doesn't really know it but he is going to lose weight too!)
Monday, October 29, 2012
Monday, October 15, 2012
Out of the woods...
...and moving on.
I got a call from my doctor today. My blood test came back and showed that my hormone levels were at a -1. She wanted them to be below 2. She said anything below a 0 means your body is not registering any pregnancy hormones at all.
That means that there is no remaining invasive cells in my body. I am still under observation for the next two months. I go back at the beginning of November and the beginning of December for blood work and as long as both of those come back good we can go back to Clomid and start trying again.
I was joking with a friend of mine today and told her that knowing Jason and I's luck we would get pregnant right away once we start trying again and end of up with football baby!
Thanks for all the prayers! Now we need prayers for patience. I think the next few months might be hard on us. Knowing now that I am ok and we have to just sit back and wait. It's like telling a kid that he has to wait a week to open the present you bought him!
I got a call from my doctor today. My blood test came back and showed that my hormone levels were at a -1. She wanted them to be below 2. She said anything below a 0 means your body is not registering any pregnancy hormones at all.
That means that there is no remaining invasive cells in my body. I am still under observation for the next two months. I go back at the beginning of November and the beginning of December for blood work and as long as both of those come back good we can go back to Clomid and start trying again.
I was joking with a friend of mine today and told her that knowing Jason and I's luck we would get pregnant right away once we start trying again and end of up with football baby!
Thanks for all the prayers! Now we need prayers for patience. I think the next few months might be hard on us. Knowing now that I am ok and we have to just sit back and wait. It's like telling a kid that he has to wait a week to open the present you bought him!
Monday, October 8, 2012
One Month down....
two more to go.
I went to the doctor today for my 2nd of 4 rounds of blood work being done over a total of 3 months. The doctor is checking my pregnancy hormones to make sure that there are no cells left from the molar pregnancy.
My last blood work from a month ago my levels were at a 10. The doctor wants them to be return to normal which is below 2. She isn't concerned that they were at 10 yet. I was only two weeks post D&C and it take time for the body to adjust. I am not out of the woods yet but we will have a much clearer picture of where I am when my blood work comes back in a few days. I feel fine and I don't feel pregnant at all so I really do think all is good.
The last month has been a crazy roller coaster for us. I still get emotional when I think about everything or when I talk to someone about it. It's funny, there are some people I can talk to about it with no problem and there are some people that I can't talk to without crying and some people (my dad) that I can't talk to about it at all. I seem to be the most emotional when I am in the car by myself. I think its because I do nothing but think in the car.
We are into the full swing of school and football. We finished our 1st six weeks of school on Friday. Jason's team is now 3-2 on the season and 3-1 in district. They are in the heart of the playoff battle and the battle for 1st place. The team is looking great and I think it will only get better.
The last month it has been nice not having to worry about taking medicine and charting my temperature and trying to figure out if Jason is going to be home on the right night of the week for us to "bond". It's takes a huge stress off knowing that we will be through most of football season (because we are going deep in the playoffs) when the 3 months is up. With Jason being a varsity coach this year he has very little time for anything so it's nice to know that the time we have together is relaxing.
I am still sad that we have been through all we have but I would much rather go through all this now then to be much further along in my pregnancy or to lose a child after it is born. I read an article the other day about a professional baseball player who's son died the day after he was born. That player after a few days had to go back to work because his team was in the playoffs. He said that he told him self when he got on the mound (he is a pitcher) that he couldn't think about his son. He said once he got out there all he could think about was his son and knowing that he was looking down on him.
I can't even imagine going through that much pain. It might be selfish but I hope that all of the pain Jason and I have been through is because God is making sure that we get a beautiful and healthy baby in the end.
I went to the doctor today for my 2nd of 4 rounds of blood work being done over a total of 3 months. The doctor is checking my pregnancy hormones to make sure that there are no cells left from the molar pregnancy.
My last blood work from a month ago my levels were at a 10. The doctor wants them to be return to normal which is below 2. She isn't concerned that they were at 10 yet. I was only two weeks post D&C and it take time for the body to adjust. I am not out of the woods yet but we will have a much clearer picture of where I am when my blood work comes back in a few days. I feel fine and I don't feel pregnant at all so I really do think all is good.
The last month has been a crazy roller coaster for us. I still get emotional when I think about everything or when I talk to someone about it. It's funny, there are some people I can talk to about it with no problem and there are some people that I can't talk to without crying and some people (my dad) that I can't talk to about it at all. I seem to be the most emotional when I am in the car by myself. I think its because I do nothing but think in the car.
We are into the full swing of school and football. We finished our 1st six weeks of school on Friday. Jason's team is now 3-2 on the season and 3-1 in district. They are in the heart of the playoff battle and the battle for 1st place. The team is looking great and I think it will only get better.
The last month it has been nice not having to worry about taking medicine and charting my temperature and trying to figure out if Jason is going to be home on the right night of the week for us to "bond". It's takes a huge stress off knowing that we will be through most of football season (because we are going deep in the playoffs) when the 3 months is up. With Jason being a varsity coach this year he has very little time for anything so it's nice to know that the time we have together is relaxing.
I am still sad that we have been through all we have but I would much rather go through all this now then to be much further along in my pregnancy or to lose a child after it is born. I read an article the other day about a professional baseball player who's son died the day after he was born. That player after a few days had to go back to work because his team was in the playoffs. He said that he told him self when he got on the mound (he is a pitcher) that he couldn't think about his son. He said once he got out there all he could think about was his son and knowing that he was looking down on him.
I can't even imagine going through that much pain. It might be selfish but I hope that all of the pain Jason and I have been through is because God is making sure that we get a beautiful and healthy baby in the end.
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