I am over being crazy....

Life has been crazy in more then one way over the past month to month and halfish. Jason finished up basketball season, my kids had regional contest and then state contest (which I was in charge of for the entire state), my grandmother has had some medical issues and there were a few times there that we all thought we might not see her again. My grandmother is doing better now. We all got to see her at Easter and we aren't in the place were we are all afraid to get the call that she has passed.

Things have slowed down a little bit. We are in the last six weeks of school (yay for summer!). I had 5 students advance to Nationals in Nashville which will be fun but expensive so I have been stressing over the cost of that. Now onto the reason most of you read my blog....baby update.

So baby making has made me crazy also, in a my medicine has literally made me crazy kind of affect. Last month I was on 150 mg of Clomid. For those of you that have taken it that is 3 pills a day for 5 days. They start you out on 1 pill a day for 5 days. This time the medicine made me really depressed and put me in horrible no good very bad mood. That crazy thing is I knew what I was doing and I knew I wasn't myself but I couldn't do anything about it.

If anything good came out of this month we know almost for certain that I did not ovulate this month. There was not change whatsoever (is that suppose to be one word?) in my temperature. In the last two months I got sick and we did not know if my temperature spiked because I was sick or because I ovulated.

Now for the bad news. Obviously if I did not ovulate then I am not pregnant but I also did not start my period on my own. So it is kinda like going back to the beginning. This month my doctor has put me on Prometrium to start a period and 200 mg of Clomid.

I am thankful in one way that I did not start my period on my own. Jason and I were struggling with the decision on if we were going to take a break or not. By not having a period is delays the process by about 3-4 weeks. The decision was made for us to take a break and I am glad it was. We both needed it very much. On a funny note when I started the prometrium two nights ago Jason looked at me funny and asked "is that the medicine that makes you crazy". God bless him!

I am nervous about going ton 200 mg of Clomid. It is another 50 mg up from the last time. The last time I had such bad mental side effects that I am afraid of what it might do. I keep telling myself that each time I have taken it I have had different side effects except for being dizzy. I am holding on to the hope that I may not have the same side effects this time.

We have used clomid three times now. We have three more shots at it before we have to start looking at other options.